The 4-H girls fantastic luminaries! It didn’t take them long at all to catch on to cutting silhouettes, and they each had their own style. I think they were pleased with the results, and I’m looking forward to working with them again.
Finally, finally I was able to take a few pictures of the graduating boy so I can send out announcements. I would not want to be a portrait photographer in real life, but I think for an amateur I do a pretty darn good job! Now to address them all and mail them out before graduation…
Some track meets attended, a Color Run
ran walked (pictures later this week), field trips taken, all the usual end of the school year madness. I’m not complaining one tiny bit – in years past it was far more crazy.
House sorted and de-stuffed, garage sale over and done with, and there were only a few items left to deal with. Brian set out the leftovers with a “FREE” sign and it disappeared. The best part was a gaggle of neighborhood kids gleefully carrying off some of the loot, each with a stuffed animal under their arm.
And I’ve been comprehensively researching adult ADD. More on this later as well.
We have had minimal winter here. I know that chaps your hide if you’ve been experiencing a true winter. Or whatever parts of your hide aren’t already chapped by wind and cold. We had a 74 degree day last week, and I swear I’m hearing birds singing that normally show up around April…
Sorry Pete, but I think you’ve been beaten to the punch.
I’d like to introduce you to Junior. I’m always inspired by Junior. I see this gentleman several times a week when I’m jogging or walking Hazel. I don’t know his last name, or whether Junior is just a nickname. I have no idea where he lives or what his story is. What I do know is that every single day he is out pulling his wagon, and picking up aluminum cans. And every time I see him I get a happy smile and a friendly wave. I believe him to be one of the gems of our little town. I also think he is a shining example of finding that thing you do well and doing it whole-heartedly.
Very often the way I’m wired, the decisions I/We (as a family) make feel like they go against the grain. Most of the time I feel like enough, and don’t get caught up in comparisons with the way other people do things. But other times I find myself in a place where I feel like I/we don’t measure up, fit in, etc.
As a family we choose to be less involved, to leave wide margins in our lives. ”Idleness is not just a vacation, an indulgence or a vice; it is as indispensable to the brain as vitamin D is to the body, and deprived of it we suffer a mental affliction as disfiguring as rickets.” Tim Kreider in a NY Times commentary.
Being an INFJ. As an individual I have spent some introspective time learning and knowing about myself. This seems self-indulgent, but the truth is no one but you is going to take the time to really understand yourself. The benefits are that, as you figure yourself out, you become more aware of the why behind the things you do. You are able to treat yourself with more compassion, understanding and acceptance. By doing the work you develop a finer tuned ability to listen to that inner voice. One interesting aspect of this self discovery is that I am a personality type that is complex, intense, rare…so the aha moment was understanding why I feel like the odd ball quite often, and why I often feel like I’m going against the grain. But as you investigate you discover, hooray, there are other people like you. Your case is not as oddball, unique or solitary as you once suspected. Really – Do the hard work. It gives you the courage to take responsibility for yourself and to let go of the things that are not yours to own.
I live in the belt buckle of the Bible belt, and I recently quit church, after being involved in a church for 20+ years. So, yeah definitely going against the grain. I was completely burned out on the constant meetings, and doubt and performance-based faith modeled there. I felt like no matter how much I did, contributed, volunteered for, etc. it was never enough. In this model of faith I felt like I had to deny my self. This kind of Christianity required me to work, and work, and work to try and transform myself into a “good” God lover. Curiously, I’ve been out of church now for a couple of months and only 2 people have even asked about where I’ve been. Hmmmmmm, I’m thinking that my particular church is playing a very dangerous and superficial game of playing church.
I have experienced something entirely different in my relationship with God that I never expereienced in the church setting. He loves me, he is especially fond of me (as The Shack describes it). He knows everything about me, even knows where I will fall short on the road ahead, but loves me and cares for me even in that. It is a relationship not a religion. It is a relationship that is completely safe, without expectations or if/then scenarios. If you manipulate 10 people into going to church I will love you. If you hand over 10% of your money, only then will I love you. If you sing those boring hymns with more gusto, then I will love you. Instead I’m experiencing a journey, an adventure, and most importantly a relationship that in the process absolutely needs the real me to show up. Not the hokey, fakey, “good” God lover. I don’t have to lose my self-ness in this relationship, and it’s this authenticity (not my constant striving) that makes real transformation happen. I know not all of you share this journey with me, or you have different expressions for your spirituality, but if you are curious this is a short list of explorations that have guided my journey. Some of this stuff hits the list for controversial *spoken in a whisper voice*. But I don’t know of anyone more controversial than Jesus in his time on earth.